Hello 2011, Bye 2010

staying home, gathered with family, watching tv.

Happy new year lovely people out there. Don't drink and drive. ;)
2010 has been a great great year for me. I finished my diploma, gain working experience at Honda for only a month (:p), futher my degree with all new friends and new environment,feeling getting closer with family, redeemed my failure during diploma with good result in first semester, got greatest present ever and many more.
Terasa macam 2010 tahun yang paling murah rezeki, alhamdulillah. I am so thankful and feeling so greatful with what I had in 2010.

But apart from it, 2010 had also gave me some tears. 2010 telah ambil insan insan tersayang. Semoga semua yang pergi ditempatkan bersama orang orang yang beriman dan semoga yang masih hidup terus kekal mendoakan mereka. Mereka pergi kerna Allah lebih menyayangi mereka.

Kalau nak dikongsi perngalaman 2010, terlalu panjang, jadi mari simpan sebagai kenangan sahaja. Its good to reminisce your past.

Jadi sempena tahun baru, I am here to seek forgiveness to whoever I might hurt secara sengaja mahupun tidak.
Moga 2011 memberi lebih kebahagiaan. Lebih kejayaan. Dan alhamdulillah relationship with mr.B is still strong, semoga diberi jodoh berpanjangan.


Happy new year love. :)

Daddy's girl got present ;)

Hey, its been awhile since my last entry. I guess nothing much to share. So here it goes, i got something came and it has change my daily routine. Totally change, and its insane. 


Okay, when talk about smartphones, semua orang jadi gila. Bile online facebook, i can see hundreds and thousands of updates that's written via blackberry, via iphone, ipad and so on. Semua pon nak online through phone. And hello, my phone E71 pon bole via via jugak, but ye lah, it can only be written by via mobile web. No specific model. hahaha. 


I'm actually not a big fan of smartphones. I'm not dying for it cause i know its kinda expensive. Not all la, you can still get blackberry curve as low as RM700. Since i bought E71 for RM 1000, takkan nak downgraded just because of via blackberry. So i save it, i won't buy a curve, unlesssss i have no choice and need new phone.


Luckily, i'd achieved something that can be proud of. And make myself acceptable to be such a demanding girl. haha. Remember i got great result for my semester. So here's the trick. 


:) Ayah, mama and all my family members didn't expect i'm gonna got listed. Even i don't believe it. So we actually make a deal, if i could get a dean's list, ayah promise to get me a present. So pick a smartphone. How smart am i. Because i know, if i have achieved nothing, ingat ayah nak kasi phone senang senang ke ? Are you craaaazyyyyy. We are not that rich. 


So ayah actually got stuck in his own deal. And ayah bought me this.  :DDDDDDDDD

*sayademamblackberryseminggu*

Its easier for me to keep in touch with my crime partner, S. We can bbm-ing every second you want. Lots of gossip can be share anywhere, anytime. Hehe, I'm so happyyyyy. 

Ayah, next sem i'll try harder. Ayah save some more money in case i got listed again. But for sure i'm not gonna demand for phone anymore. Something cheaper maybe. hehe :p

p/s: work hard if you want something in life. there are people out there who appreciate your hardwork. i love my dad. always. 

When ayah starts to approve

Two days spent with ayah were actually not that bad.

It really good when you got the chance for heart to heart talk. Really good. 

As usual, we went for breakfast. Ayah suddenly starts to ask an unexpected question. We were rarely talk about mr. B and i don't know what had crossed his mind, he asked about it. That so weird because i know, dulu when he got to know mr b, he's not fancy about it. I don't know, maybe that time i was still stuck in Kedah and perhaps he assumed having mr b, sikit sebanyak distracted my studies. Maybe la kan. 

But then. after i continue my degree, he was still like that. Takde la serious sangat tak suka sampai nak suruh break ke apa. But ye la, sometimes keep on questioning who pick me up when i arrived Kl, adi dah habis belajar ke belum , ada dekat Kl buat apa and bla bla bla. That sort of question. So i presumed he is still not fancy about adi. Ayah sometimes when he got chance to talk about future husband and stuff, always said bout rich man and bla bla bla. But then, i will argue. I don't like rich man. I got point, and he agreed. Maybe he got tired because he knows me well. 

Everyday, i was hoping that one day, ayah will agree with my choice and accept adi for what he is. 

So, that day, ayah suddenly asked about the relationship. How serious the relationship. And the conversation was damn so serious. Like seriously serious. Mula mula berat nak jawab, sebab knowing ayah was not fancy. Senyum je. 

Then ayah said, 'for now, ayah dah boleh accept. He is now 60% approved.'. Ask him to seek for another 40% left.' I know. I am so happy. There's a lot that we talk. It's so good to know that ayah finally see this relationship as serious as i see. Ohh no mannn, i think ayah is more serious than me for this relationship. As if i'm getting married in 3 years time pulak. Ayah ni. I'm still young. 

I hope, really hope we won't make mistake. Both us. This relationship had stand for nearly 2 years. I know its not that long, but its something for me can be proud off. I hope mr B will now work harder, study harder and starts to think of our future. the best for us two. This is real. You better take care of me or else ayah cari sampai lubang cacing. :)

I hope i got jodoh with him. Insyaallah. 

p/s: I lebiu. 

Pilihan atau tanggungjawab

Dua hari lepas, 

Lokasi : Kuala Kangsar. 

Aktiviti : Kahwin Pak Cu

Hari ini,

Lokasi : Rumah

Aktiviti : None.

Last night was my uncle's wedding. It was actually 'the akad nikah'. Bersanding insyaallah bulan tiga. Jadi, the night before, we were all went back to kampung, gathered and prepared all the hantaran. Riuh rendah sebab ramai anak kecil. 

Like always, ayah came on the day itself. Memang selalu ayah jarang tido sana. So since then, kami akan bawak kereta berasingan. Dah puas pujuk, letih ajak. Ayah tetap macam itu. Jadi tak mengapalah. Mungkin ayah tak selesa, mengapa nak paksa. 

Meriah. Sebab dah lama tak ada kenduri kahwin. ye lah, bile raya, tak semua dapat gathering bersama. Kali ni, semua ada. Memang seronok. :)

Hari nikah, 

Ayah janji datang hari ni. Ayah janji datang siang. Tiba tiba, ayah mengadu demam. Kami susah hati. Nak balik amik ayah, dah lewat atau mungkin, terlalu malas untuk meninggalkan suasana meriah. Mungkin. 

Ayah gagahkan juga. Ayah sampai malam. Tepat tepat masa nak ke rumah pengantin perempuan. Okay, janji ayah selamat sampai. Maka, cukup semua adik beradik dan ipar pakcu pada hari pentingnya. Masih berseronok bersama keluarga. Meriah tidah terkata. 

Selesai akad nikah.

Sedia maklum ayah memang jarang tido kampung. Bila dah selesai upacara, dah selesai dari rumah perempuan, sambing kemeriahan di kampung sendiri. Walaupun tak buat apa apa, hanya duduk bergossip sesama aunty aunty dan sanak saudara, kemeriahan sangat terasa. 

Tiba tiba, ayah ajak balik. Tak larat nak balik sorang. Tak mahu tido situ. Jadi macam mana ni ? Susah nak buat pilihan bila hati sedang seronok bersama keluarga yang lain. Terus jadi marah atau mungkin bengang ? Itu dah satu dosa. Tapi ye lah, tengah seronok, di ajak pulang, pasti rasa sedih dan tak nak. Tapi apakan daya. Didesak desak. Maka, akur. Tidak mahu berbalah lagi. Terus buat muka, lalu vrrroooom, balik rumah. Tinggalkan kemeriahan beramai. Diam sepanjang perjalan. 

Lama mana sangat bole marahkan ayah. Terus terfikir. Marah atau tidak, sudah pon dalam perjalanan. Sudah pon sampai rumah. Sudah pon tinggalkan yang lain. Mungkin rasa marah dengan pilihan yang ada. Mungkin terasa seperti tidak adil. Itu semua darah muda. 

Kadang kadang syaitan begitu kuat menghasut. 

Kadang kadang nafsu lebih kuat. 

Marah, beransur hilang, mula berfikir secara matang. Mungkin ia bukanlah pilihan, itu sebenarnya tanggungjawab. Untuk berfikir mana yang lebih penting. Mungkin kedua dua bersikap selfish. Tapi siapa kita untuk terus marahkan ayah. Kerana at the end of the day, die lebih banyak berkorban dari kita. 


Nah gambar kami saudara mara. 

Kesimpulannya, dalam hidup. ada yang lebih penting dari keseronokan. 
Anyways, Pakcu and Kak Yani, congratulations. 

p/s : tiba tiba hari ni yang lain semua pegi cameron higlands. dari elok dah hilang emo, emo la balik sebab kena tinggal ;(

Sneak peek

hai, nama saya handsome. orang panggil saya chuck. tuan saya cantik berambut blonde macam saya. saya geli bila orang peluk peluk saya. saya tak suka tangkap gambar, apatah lagi kalau ada flash. selamat berkenalan. jangan tangkap gambar saya lagi. saya tahu saya handsome. bye

Six months is not that long

Abang is getting married in six months time. That is so close. 


Ayah and mama is just too young too face this phase. Ok, not young, tapi belum cukup tua i guess ? :D 


I don't know, i'm just not ready to get into this phase of life. In a year time im gonna be called, aunty ? ohhhhh, i'm still young dude. You are making me old. 


Its funny when you see your dad don't know how to deal, what's next step and bla bla bla. hehe, ayah so comel you know. 


Abang's engagement was last six months, up to now ayah not yet set the date for the wedding. 
So we went to Kedah for a short meeting.


Its was good to see abang's future father-in-law was soooooo happening, so down to earth. And kelakar jugak ok. You know, knowing abang gonna be part of the family, i know he'll safe. They are so friendly. We felt like we were treated already like their family. That's so cool. 

mari bincang tarikh, tangan pegang calendar.

In six months time, we gonna have a big wedding. Rasanya, i'll take contract bunga telur je boleh ? 

handsome jugak besan ayah ni

Just to let you know abang, we are happy for you. We just not ready to let you go. I just miss our old times. You're gonna be a husband one day, be good. We love you.


Oh well, its doesn't end there. 

Sebelum gerak ayah pura pura pening. pffft

kami pegi sini

sekarang jejantas dah ada escalator. teruja juga.

ayah tangkap gambar akak ni dengan harapan dapat discount. 


TAK*

Bile dah balik, rasa kerepek, ada yang masuk angin dan tak sedap. Macam ni lah kalau orang melayu berniaga. kecewa sungguh. 

Paid Off

My first semester is not easy for me. With new environment, new friends, and new course. 
Everything is new. And there goes my result, also newwwwwwwwwww. :)


The whole sem was tiring. Stayed up till morning, went up till penang just to get best shots, spending too much money on assignments, argued with classmates because of tests. It was a hell. Anddddd, i was lack of everything. From transportation, gadgets, and all more. 


Being a masscommer is not easy. You have too work hard for it. A lot of pressure. You cannot just sit in your room and read books. That's not how we do our work. 


My diploma was not a success for me. I grad, but not in time. i've been through a lot. From the bad to the best result. I admit, i have no mission back then. What in mind was just to pass all papers. And passing all accounts paper was a heaven to all accounts students. That's a fact.


I redeem. 4 years waiting finally paid. Ayah is the happiest person in world. So do i. Because we never expected result to come out like this. Hey ayah, its Dean's List. Now are proud of me ? oh, because i'm proud of myself too. Hehe. I felt like fainting when i check the result.  


Thank God for giving me chance. Alhamdulillah. 


Ohh the happiness is double when S got listed too. Yeayy. We made it. :D

Leisure time

Masa kecik hobi semua letak tengok tv, dengar music, lepak. What was that again ? 


So now, no more biodata. No more hobbies like that. 


Sekarang, you share the hobby with your family. 


And for my family,
WE ROLL THE BALL. We do bowling. :)))


I remembered, its all happened when one of my uncle got married. While busy preparing, they play bowling. A LOT. haha, masa tu ayah not in the mood yet. Because he don't know the step, bola asyik masuk longkang je. 


Eh now he can play very well ok. Practice makes perfect. And now i cannot beat his scores la. 


But todayyyyyyyyyyyy, its history weh. We go play as usual. I got new record weh. I don't know how. Hahaha. 

once in a life time. haha. gempak an an. 

Gempak la for someone yang tak reti main. Kalau Malaysian bowlers then i might the worst lah kan. 

But ayah has the best shot. Watch this. 

* focus on his mouth. he is pouting. kelakar and gelak guling guling ayah ni. 

Muncung pon muncung lah janji ayah played so well. I'm proud of him. 

Dream high won't let you down

Talking to S always end up with a mission. Whether it is impossible or possible. We always like that. 


Last two nights we chat. It was first a gossip session. Tahu tahu je la when it comes to gossip session, mesti melalut sampai ke laut. 


We were talking about people who are lucky. That have the opportunity to spend the holiday, semester break or even further studies overseas. Whilst us two, spent our time, besarkan ass, AT HOME.  And oh, not forgetting , trying to cut some weight by minum teh orang kampung. How bored and malas can  us be ? 


We wish, we can be like others. Go holiday somewhere, not worried about money spent. Yes , we were jealous with some people who born rich. Who can spent their money on vacation. Not here, but outside the country. . Tak kurang jugak yang got the chance to go intern oversea. AAAAAAAA, why so lucky these people. Tapi we still stuck in here, doing degree. Yek yek. 


But after all, it was not all about jealousy. Seeing people having fun, go holiday or intern, snowy or by the beach, motivate ourself. Jealous is not always a bad thing. It can lead to be an inspiration. If you don't born in a rich family, don't get mad. Don't feel sad. Don't blame your parents. So yeah, we had a discussion and lead to a mission. 


If you know you don't have money to easily go on a holiday, then, start saving, stop buying ! 
Everything is possible. So, we had a plan. wink* wink*. 


2012 -------------------> AUSTRALIA WE GO. 


Well well well. Two years to go. I'm gonna save my money. Cut all the expensive. Start working on semester break, instead of malas malas on bed and updating blog, i should start earn income. Definitely gonna cut my wishlist on what to buy next semester. See, this mission is soooooo gonna teach myself to not bazir the money. Walaupun tak jadi nanti. Ohhh no, we still gonna go. Definitely. Right S ? 


*or can we book the ticket now ? boleh ke dapat harga 300 ratus je if book two years ealier ? 


After two years then we gonna upload photos in Aussie. Its fucking aussie wei. If this really happen, then i'm sure i'm gonna be so proud of myself. Go on Holiday by my own money. Siapa kata tak boleh ? Dua tahun pon dua tahun la. Janji pegi. 


and i'm gonna buy t shirt printed, I <3 melbourne or something. Haha. LAME. 

bole kenal dengan mat salleh. ;D

* main main je mr.b. iloveyou.

I am so semangat now. Siapa nak ikut start open an account, start saving. Seriously. 


Always have a dream, hope was high, life worth living. 


Stop talking about others having fun, get yours. everyone can. :) 


p/s : i tell you, this gonna happen. 

Birthday's at delicious late pictures blame S

Nahhhh. I promise you to post pictures of my simple birthday celebration at Delicious Jalan Pinang. Now i got the picture. and now i miss all these pretty ladies. Thank you for coming and gathered together. Love you people. 

This is soooo kedah 

sheen, tya, elya and S

i love them all

Thank you love. :)

Hello birthday present :)

heyy. i know my birthday wasss soo outdated. Ahha, but i just got my birthday present from my two in a million and i'm so happy. S bought me super sweet yummy delicious britney spears fantasy perfume. Sangat sangat suka. I am someone who never gonna spent my own money to buy perfume. I rather waste the money to something else. Tak pakai perfume mahal pon takpe lah. Can pakai bedak wangi. hehe. Thank you S. :)))

Last few weeks, i had shoe fever. Dok asyik teringin nak beli kasut. Saw my earlier post, mengidam kasut cantik wedges. Demam kasut yang sangat high. Sampai every post on facebook is related to kasut cantik. I even make the picture of the shoe as my profile picture. I'm so in love with it, i know. Suddenly Mr. B came up with an idea to buy me kasut for my birthday present. No, not the wedges i dreamed all night. Not that, but something else that also makes my heart melting. Ohh kasut itu sangat cool. 

When i came to KL for my big day, we went out and we went to OU. Ohhh, dah lamaaaaa sangat tak pegi OU i can't remember when was the last time i went there. The mission is to find for kasut cantik. At first i want ada this one flats shoe. I don't know what its name but i saw it in Pyramid. At Vinci and i named it as kasut bulu bulu. Sadly, OU doesn't have that. :(

Jalan jalan jalan jalan, keluar and masuk kedai. Finally i found.....

this handsome shoe at ZARA

So he bought me this. And we have same taste. :))))))). Thanks sayang. Iloveyou. 

Then i should start saving my money to buy present for these two people birthdays. *pengsan

Ohhh, and ayah bought this, 

not for me sangat la kan, but he bought semata for my big day. I felt special. Welcome to the family :D

p/s : Lepas ni album fb ada 50.

The survival

Biar panas mana, biar sesak mana, biar awal pagi, biar penat mana, mereka sanggup tahan. Mereka sanggup tunggu. Terima kasih mereka yang tersayang. 


Last thursday was my big day. The very big big one. After four years of struggling, i am so proud to say that now i am an accounting graduates. I am so proud being me. Wayyyy too proud. I learned a lot. From numbers, life, family and also love. Uitm Kedah is the best. 


Doing accounts is not as easy as you think. I struggled a lot. I gave up. I mess up. But after all, i survived. And i know, though i have to face all the hardship, i always knew ayah and mama will always support. And all of this is for them. 


Ayah is someone who don't like being in crowd. And tak suka berpanas lama lama. He is someone who if you have settled things, then lets go home. He is like that. But on my big day, he sacrificed. But ayah don't get in the hall. I know he tak larat to wake up as early as 6 just to queue panjang panjang and then my turn is soooo lambat. So yeah. I let him slept first at the hotel. So he sent us, me and mama (see how mama's heart, she woke up at 6, she queue, she's the first one to get in).  And yessssssssss. I finally got my scroll.  

thank you for coming pretty :D

big thanks 

the proud parents

p/s : Al, imissyou. We survived. I'm proud of you. :)