staying home, gathered with family, watching tv.
Happy new year lovely people out there. Don't drink and drive. ;)
2010 has been a great great year for me. I finished my diploma, gain working experience at Honda for only a month (:p), futher my degree with all new friends and new environment,feeling getting closer with family, redeemed my failure during diploma with good result in first semester, got greatest present ever and many more.
Terasa macam 2010 tahun yang paling murah rezeki, alhamdulillah. I am so thankful and feeling so greatful with what I had in 2010.
But apart from it, 2010 had also gave me some tears. 2010 telah ambil insan insan tersayang. Semoga semua yang pergi ditempatkan bersama orang orang yang beriman dan semoga yang masih hidup terus kekal mendoakan mereka. Mereka pergi kerna Allah lebih menyayangi mereka.
Kalau nak dikongsi perngalaman 2010, terlalu panjang, jadi mari simpan sebagai kenangan sahaja. Its good to reminisce your past.
Jadi sempena tahun baru, I am here to seek forgiveness to whoever I might hurt secara sengaja mahupun tidak.
Moga 2011 memberi lebih kebahagiaan. Lebih kejayaan. Dan alhamdulillah relationship with mr.B is still strong, semoga diberi jodoh berpanjangan.
Happy new year love. :)
Friday, December 31, 2010
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Daddy's girl got present ;)
Hey, its been awhile since my last entry. I guess nothing much to share. So here it goes, i got something came and it has change my daily routine. Totally change, and its insane.
Okay, when talk about smartphones, semua orang jadi gila. Bile online facebook, i can see hundreds and thousands of updates that's written via blackberry, via iphone, ipad and so on. Semua pon nak online through phone. And hello, my phone E71 pon bole via via jugak, but ye lah, it can only be written by via mobile web. No specific model. hahaha.
I'm actually not a big fan of smartphones. I'm not dying for it cause i know its kinda expensive. Not all la, you can still get blackberry curve as low as RM700. Since i bought E71 for RM 1000, takkan nak downgraded just because of via blackberry. So i save it, i won't buy a curve, unlesssss i have no choice and need new phone.
Luckily, i'd achieved something that can be proud of. And make myself acceptable to be such a demanding girl. haha. Remember i got great result for my semester. So here's the trick.
:) Ayah, mama and all my family members didn't expect i'm gonna got listed. Even i don't believe it. So we actually make a deal, if i could get a dean's list, ayah promise to get me a present. So pick a smartphone. How smart am i. Because i know, if i have achieved nothing, ingat ayah nak kasi phone senang senang ke ? Are you craaaazyyyyy. We are not that rich.
So ayah actually got stuck in his own deal. And ayah bought me this. :DDDDDDDDD
Okay, when talk about smartphones, semua orang jadi gila. Bile online facebook, i can see hundreds and thousands of updates that's written via blackberry, via iphone, ipad and so on. Semua pon nak online through phone. And hello, my phone E71 pon bole via via jugak, but ye lah, it can only be written by via mobile web. No specific model. hahaha.
I'm actually not a big fan of smartphones. I'm not dying for it cause i know its kinda expensive. Not all la, you can still get blackberry curve as low as RM700. Since i bought E71 for RM 1000, takkan nak downgraded just because of via blackberry. So i save it, i won't buy a curve, unlesssss i have no choice and need new phone.
Luckily, i'd achieved something that can be proud of. And make myself acceptable to be such a demanding girl. haha. Remember i got great result for my semester. So here's the trick.
:) Ayah, mama and all my family members didn't expect i'm gonna got listed. Even i don't believe it. So we actually make a deal, if i could get a dean's list, ayah promise to get me a present. So pick a smartphone. How smart am i. Because i know, if i have achieved nothing, ingat ayah nak kasi phone senang senang ke ? Are you craaaazyyyyy. We are not that rich.
So ayah actually got stuck in his own deal. And ayah bought me this. :DDDDDDDDD
*sayademamblackberryseminggu*
Its easier for me to keep in touch with my crime partner, S. We can bbm-ing every second you want. Lots of gossip can be share anywhere, anytime. Hehe, I'm so happyyyyy.
Ayah, next sem i'll try harder. Ayah save some more money in case i got listed again. But for sure i'm not gonna demand for phone anymore. Something cheaper maybe. hehe :p
p/s: work hard if you want something in life. there are people out there who appreciate your hardwork. i love my dad. always.
Monday, December 20, 2010
When ayah starts to approve
Two days spent with ayah were actually not that bad.
It really good when you got the chance for heart to heart talk. Really good.
As usual, we went for breakfast. Ayah suddenly starts to ask an unexpected question. We were rarely talk about mr. B and i don't know what had crossed his mind, he asked about it. That so weird because i know, dulu when he got to know mr b, he's not fancy about it. I don't know, maybe that time i was still stuck in Kedah and perhaps he assumed having mr b, sikit sebanyak distracted my studies. Maybe la kan.
But then. after i continue my degree, he was still like that. Takde la serious sangat tak suka sampai nak suruh break ke apa. But ye la, sometimes keep on questioning who pick me up when i arrived Kl, adi dah habis belajar ke belum , ada dekat Kl buat apa and bla bla bla. That sort of question. So i presumed he is still not fancy about adi. Ayah sometimes when he got chance to talk about future husband and stuff, always said bout rich man and bla bla bla. But then, i will argue. I don't like rich man. I got point, and he agreed. Maybe he got tired because he knows me well.
Everyday, i was hoping that one day, ayah will agree with my choice and accept adi for what he is.
So, that day, ayah suddenly asked about the relationship. How serious the relationship. And the conversation was damn so serious. Like seriously serious. Mula mula berat nak jawab, sebab knowing ayah was not fancy. Senyum je.
Then ayah said, 'for now, ayah dah boleh accept. He is now 60% approved.'. Ask him to seek for another 40% left.' I know. I am so happy. There's a lot that we talk. It's so good to know that ayah finally see this relationship as serious as i see. Ohh no mannn, i think ayah is more serious than me for this relationship. As if i'm getting married in 3 years time pulak. Ayah ni. I'm still young.
I hope, really hope we won't make mistake. Both us. This relationship had stand for nearly 2 years. I know its not that long, but its something for me can be proud off. I hope mr B will now work harder, study harder and starts to think of our future. the best for us two. This is real. You better take care of me or else ayah cari sampai lubang cacing. :)
I hope i got jodoh with him. Insyaallah.
p/s: I lebiu.
Sunday, December 19, 2010
Pilihan atau tanggungjawab
Dua hari lepas,
Lokasi : Kuala Kangsar.
Aktiviti : Kahwin Pak Cu
Hari ini,
Lokasi : Rumah
Aktiviti : None.
Last night was my uncle's wedding. It was actually 'the akad nikah'. Bersanding insyaallah bulan tiga. Jadi, the night before, we were all went back to kampung, gathered and prepared all the hantaran. Riuh rendah sebab ramai anak kecil.
Like always, ayah came on the day itself. Memang selalu ayah jarang tido sana. So since then, kami akan bawak kereta berasingan. Dah puas pujuk, letih ajak. Ayah tetap macam itu. Jadi tak mengapalah. Mungkin ayah tak selesa, mengapa nak paksa.
Meriah. Sebab dah lama tak ada kenduri kahwin. ye lah, bile raya, tak semua dapat gathering bersama. Kali ni, semua ada. Memang seronok. :)
Hari nikah,
Ayah janji datang hari ni. Ayah janji datang siang. Tiba tiba, ayah mengadu demam. Kami susah hati. Nak balik amik ayah, dah lewat atau mungkin, terlalu malas untuk meninggalkan suasana meriah. Mungkin.
Ayah gagahkan juga. Ayah sampai malam. Tepat tepat masa nak ke rumah pengantin perempuan. Okay, janji ayah selamat sampai. Maka, cukup semua adik beradik dan ipar pakcu pada hari pentingnya. Masih berseronok bersama keluarga. Meriah tidah terkata.
Selesai akad nikah.
Sedia maklum ayah memang jarang tido kampung. Bila dah selesai upacara, dah selesai dari rumah perempuan, sambing kemeriahan di kampung sendiri. Walaupun tak buat apa apa, hanya duduk bergossip sesama aunty aunty dan sanak saudara, kemeriahan sangat terasa.
Tiba tiba, ayah ajak balik. Tak larat nak balik sorang. Tak mahu tido situ. Jadi macam mana ni ? Susah nak buat pilihan bila hati sedang seronok bersama keluarga yang lain. Terus jadi marah atau mungkin bengang ? Itu dah satu dosa. Tapi ye lah, tengah seronok, di ajak pulang, pasti rasa sedih dan tak nak. Tapi apakan daya. Didesak desak. Maka, akur. Tidak mahu berbalah lagi. Terus buat muka, lalu vrrroooom, balik rumah. Tinggalkan kemeriahan beramai. Diam sepanjang perjalan.
Lama mana sangat bole marahkan ayah. Terus terfikir. Marah atau tidak, sudah pon dalam perjalanan. Sudah pon sampai rumah. Sudah pon tinggalkan yang lain. Mungkin rasa marah dengan pilihan yang ada. Mungkin terasa seperti tidak adil. Itu semua darah muda.
Kadang kadang syaitan begitu kuat menghasut.
Kadang kadang nafsu lebih kuat.
Marah, beransur hilang, mula berfikir secara matang. Mungkin ia bukanlah pilihan, itu sebenarnya tanggungjawab. Untuk berfikir mana yang lebih penting. Mungkin kedua dua bersikap selfish. Tapi siapa kita untuk terus marahkan ayah. Kerana at the end of the day, die lebih banyak berkorban dari kita.
Nah gambar kami saudara mara.
Kesimpulannya, dalam hidup. ada yang lebih penting dari keseronokan.
Anyways, Pakcu and Kak Yani, congratulations.
Nah gambar kami saudara mara.
Kesimpulannya, dalam hidup. ada yang lebih penting dari keseronokan.
Anyways, Pakcu and Kak Yani, congratulations.
p/s : tiba tiba hari ni yang lain semua pegi cameron higlands. dari elok dah hilang emo, emo la balik sebab kena tinggal ;(
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Sneak peek
hai, nama saya handsome. orang panggil saya chuck. tuan saya cantik berambut blonde macam saya. saya geli bila orang peluk peluk saya. saya tak suka tangkap gambar, apatah lagi kalau ada flash. selamat berkenalan. jangan tangkap gambar saya lagi. saya tahu saya handsome. bye
Six months is not that long
Abang is getting married in six months time. That is so close.
Ayah and mama is just tooyoung too face this phase. Ok, not young, tapi belum cukup tua i guess ? :D
I don't know, i'm just not ready to get into this phase of life. In a year time im gonna be called, aunty ? ohhhhh, i'm still young dude. You are making me old.
Its funny when you see your dad don't know how to deal, what's next step and bla bla bla. hehe, ayah so comel you know.
Abang's engagement was last six months, up to now ayah not yet set the date for the wedding.
So we went to Kedah for a short meeting.
Its was good to see abang's future father-in-law was soooooo happening, so down to earth. And kelakar jugak ok. You know, knowing abang gonna be part of the family, i know he'll safe. They are so friendly. We felt like we were treated already like their family. That's so cool.
In six months time, we gonna have a big wedding. Rasanya, i'll take contract bunga telur je boleh ?
Just to let you know abang, we are happy for you. We just not ready to let you go. I just miss our old times. You're gonna be a husband one day, be good. We love you.
Oh well, its doesn't end there.
Ayah and mama is just too
I don't know, i'm just not ready to get into this phase of life. In a year time im gonna be called, aunty ? ohhhhh, i'm still young dude. You are making me old.
Its funny when you see your dad don't know how to deal, what's next step and bla bla bla. hehe, ayah so comel you know.
Abang's engagement was last six months, up to now ayah not yet set the date for the wedding.
So we went to Kedah for a short meeting.
Its was good to see abang's future father-in-law was soooooo happening, so down to earth. And kelakar jugak ok. You know, knowing abang gonna be part of the family, i know he'll safe. They are so friendly. We felt like we were treated already like their family. That's so cool.
mari bincang tarikh, tangan pegang calendar.
In six months time, we gonna have a big wedding. Rasanya, i'll take contract bunga telur je boleh ?
handsome jugak besan ayah ni
Just to let you know abang, we are happy for you. We just not ready to let you go. I just miss our old times. You're gonna be a husband one day, be good. We love you.
Oh well, its doesn't end there.
Sebelum gerak ayah pura pura pening. pffft
kami pegi sini
sekarang jejantas dah ada escalator. teruja juga.
ayah tangkap gambar akak ni dengan harapan dapat discount.
TAK*
TAK*
Bile dah balik, rasa kerepek, ada yang masuk angin dan tak sedap. Macam ni lah kalau orang melayu berniaga. kecewa sungguh.
Friday, December 10, 2010
Paid Off
My first semester is not easy for me. With new environment, new friends, and new course.
Everything is new. And there goes my result, also newwwwwwwwwww. :)
The whole sem was tiring. Stayed up till morning, went up till penang just to get best shots, spending too much money on assignments, argued with classmates because of tests. It was a hell. Anddddd, i was lack of everything. From transportation, gadgets, and all more.
Being a masscommer is not easy. You have too work hard for it. A lot of pressure. You cannot just sit in your room and read books. That's not how we do our work.
My diploma was not a success for me. I grad, but not in time. i've been through a lot. From the bad to the best result. I admit, i have no mission back then. What in mind was just to pass all papers. And passing all accounts paper was a heaven to all accounts students. That's a fact.
I redeem. 4 years waiting finally paid. Ayah is the happiest person in world. So do i. Because we never expected result to come out like this. Hey ayah, its Dean's List. Now are proud of me ? oh, because i'm proud of myself too. Hehe. I felt like fainting when i check the result.
Thank God for giving me chance. Alhamdulillah.
Ohh the happiness is double when S got listed too. Yeayy. We made it. :D
Everything is new. And there goes my result, also newwwwwwwwwww. :)
The whole sem was tiring. Stayed up till morning, went up till penang just to get best shots, spending too much money on assignments, argued with classmates because of tests. It was a hell. Anddddd, i was lack of everything. From transportation, gadgets, and all more.
Being a masscommer is not easy. You have too work hard for it. A lot of pressure. You cannot just sit in your room and read books. That's not how we do our work.
My diploma was not a success for me. I grad, but not in time. i've been through a lot. From the bad to the best result. I admit, i have no mission back then. What in mind was just to pass all papers. And passing all accounts paper was a heaven to all accounts students. That's a fact.
I redeem. 4 years waiting finally paid. Ayah is the happiest person in world. So do i. Because we never expected result to come out like this. Hey ayah, its Dean's List. Now are proud of me ? oh, because i'm proud of myself too. Hehe. I felt like fainting when i check the result.
Thank God for giving me chance. Alhamdulillah.
Ohh the happiness is double when S got listed too. Yeayy. We made it. :D
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Leisure time
Masa kecik hobi semua letak tengok tv, dengar music, lepak. What was that again ?
So now, no more biodata. No more hobbies like that.
Sekarang, you share the hobby with your family.
And for my family,
WE ROLL THE BALL. We do bowling. :)))
I remembered, its all happened when one of my uncle got married. While busy preparing, they play bowling. A LOT. haha, masa tu ayah not in the mood yet. Because he don't know the step, bola asyik masuk longkang je.
Eh now he can play very well ok. Practice makes perfect. And now i cannot beat his scores la.
But todayyyyyyyyyyyy, its history weh. We go play as usual. I got new record weh. I don't know how. Hahaha.
So now, no more biodata. No more hobbies like that.
Sekarang, you share the hobby with your family.
And for my family,
WE ROLL THE BALL. We do bowling. :)))
I remembered, its all happened when one of my uncle got married. While busy preparing, they play bowling. A LOT. haha, masa tu ayah not in the mood yet. Because he don't know the step, bola asyik masuk longkang je.
Eh now he can play very well ok. Practice makes perfect. And now i cannot beat his scores la.
But todayyyyyyyyyyyy, its history weh. We go play as usual. I got new record weh. I don't know how. Hahaha.
once in a life time. haha. gempak an an.
Gempak la for someone yang tak reti main. Kalau Malaysian bowlers then i might the worst lah kan.
But ayah has the best shot. Watch this.
* focus on his mouth. he is pouting. kelakar and gelak guling guling ayah ni.
Muncung pon muncung lah janji ayah played so well. I'm proud of him.
Monday, December 6, 2010
Dream high won't let you down
Talking to S always end up with a mission. Whether it is impossible or possible. We always like that.
Last two nights we chat. It was first a gossip session. Tahu tahu je la when it comes to gossip session, mesti melalut sampai kelaut.
We were talking about people who are lucky. That have the opportunity to spend the holiday, semester break or even further studies overseas. Whilst us two, spent our time, besarkan ass, AT HOME. And oh, not forgetting , trying to cut some weight by minumteh orang kampung. How bored and malas can us be ?
We wish, we can be like others. Go holiday somewhere, not worried about money spent. Yes , we were jealous with some people who born rich. Who can spent their money on vacation. Not here, but outside the country. . Tak kurang jugak yang got the chance to go intern oversea. AAAAAAAA, why so lucky these people. Tapi we still stuck in here, doing degree. Yek yek.
But after all, it was not all about jealousy. Seeing people having fun, go holiday or intern, snowy or by the beach, motivate ourself. Jealous is not always a bad thing. It can lead to be an inspiration. If you don't born in a rich family, don't get mad. Don't feel sad. Don't blame your parents. So yeah, we had a discussion and lead to a mission.
If you know you don't have money to easily go on a holiday, then, start saving, stop buying !
Everything is possible. So, we had a plan. wink* wink*.
2012 -------------------> AUSTRALIA WE GO.
Well well well. Two years to go. I'm gonna save my money. Cut all the expensive. Start working on semester break, instead of malas malas on bed and updating blog, i should start earn income. Definitely gonna cut my wishlist on what to buy next semester. See, this mission is soooooo gonna teach myself to not bazir the money. Walaupun tak jadi nanti. Ohhh no, we still gonna go. Definitely. Right S ?
*or can we book the ticket now ? boleh ke dapat harga 300 ratus je if book two years ealier ?
After two years then we gonna upload photos in Aussie. Its fucking aussie wei. If this really happen, then i'm sure i'm gonna be so proud of myself. Go on Holiday by my own money. Siapa kata tak boleh ? Dua tahun pon dua tahun la. Janji pegi.
and i'm gonna buy t shirt printed, I <3 melbourne or something. Haha.LAME.
I am so semangat now. Siapa nak ikut start open an account, start saving. Seriously.
Always have a dream, hope was high, life worth living.
Stop talking about others having fun, get yours. everyone can. :)
p/s : i tell you, this gonna happen.
Last two nights we chat. It was first a gossip session. Tahu tahu je la when it comes to gossip session, mesti melalut sampai ke
We were talking about people who are lucky. That have the opportunity to spend the holiday, semester break or even further studies overseas. Whilst us two, spent our time, besarkan ass, AT HOME. And oh, not forgetting , trying to cut some weight by minum
We wish, we can be like others. Go holiday somewhere, not worried about money spent. Yes , we were jealous with some people who born rich. Who can spent their money on vacation. Not here, but outside the country. . Tak kurang jugak yang got the chance to go intern oversea. AAAAAAAA, why so lucky these people. Tapi we still stuck in here, doing degree. Yek yek.
But after all, it was not all about jealousy. Seeing people having fun, go holiday or intern, snowy or by the beach, motivate ourself. Jealous is not always a bad thing. It can lead to be an inspiration. If you don't born in a rich family, don't get mad. Don't feel sad. Don't blame your parents. So yeah, we had a discussion and lead to a mission.
If you know you don't have money to easily go on a holiday, then, start saving, stop buying !
Everything is possible. So, we had a plan. wink* wink*.
2012 -------------------> AUSTRALIA WE GO.
Well well well. Two years to go. I'm gonna save my money. Cut all the expensive. Start working on semester break, instead of malas malas on bed and updating blog, i should start earn income. Definitely gonna cut my wishlist on what to buy next semester. See, this mission is soooooo gonna teach myself to not bazir the money. Walaupun tak jadi nanti. Ohhh no, we still gonna go. Definitely. Right S ?
*or can we book the ticket now ? boleh ke dapat harga 300 ratus je if book two years ealier ?
After two years then we gonna upload photos in Aussie. Its fucking aussie wei. If this really happen, then i'm sure i'm gonna be so proud of myself. Go on Holiday by my own money. Siapa kata tak boleh ? Dua tahun pon dua tahun la. Janji pegi.
and i'm gonna buy t shirt printed, I <3 melbourne or something. Haha.
bole kenal dengan mat salleh. ;D
* main main je mr.b. iloveyou.
Always have a dream, hope was high, life worth living.
Stop talking about others having fun, get yours. everyone can. :)
p/s : i tell you, this gonna happen.
Saturday, December 4, 2010
Birthday's at delicious late pictures blame S
Nahhhh. I promise you to post pictures of my simple birthday celebration at Delicious Jalan Pinang. Now i got the picture. and now i miss all these pretty ladies. Thank you for coming and gathered together. Love you people.
This is soooo kedah
sheen, tya, elya and S
i love them all
Thank you love. :)
Hello birthday present :)
heyy. i know my birthday wasss soo outdated. Ahha, but i just got my birthday present from my two in a million and i'm so happy. S bought me super sweet yummy delicious britney spears fantasy perfume. Sangat sangat suka. I am someone who never gonna spent my own money to buy perfume. I rather waste the money to something else. Tak pakai perfume mahal pon takpe lah. Can pakai bedak wangi. hehe. Thank you S. :)))
Last few weeks, i had shoe fever. Dok asyik teringin nak beli kasut. Saw my earlier post, mengidam kasut cantik wedges. Demam kasut yang sangat high. Sampai every post on facebook is related to kasut cantik. I even make the picture of the shoe as my profile picture. I'm so in love with it, i know. Suddenly Mr. B came up with an idea to buy me kasut for my birthday present. No, not the wedges i dreamed all night. Not that, but something else that also makes my heart melting. Ohh kasut itu sangat cool.
When i came to KL for my big day, we went out and we went to OU. Ohhh, dah lamaaaaa sangat tak pegi OU i can't remember when was the last time i went there. The mission is to find for kasut cantik. At first i want ada this one flats shoe. I don't know what its name but i saw it in Pyramid. At Vinci and i named it as kasut bulu bulu. Sadly, OU doesn't have that. :(
Jalan jalan jalan jalan, keluar and masuk kedai. Finally i found.....
this handsome shoe at ZARA
So he bought me this. And we have same taste. :))))))). Thanks sayang. Iloveyou.
Then i should start saving my money to buy present for these two people birthdays. *pengsan
Ohhh, and ayah bought this,
not for me sangat la kan, but he bought semata for my big day. I felt special. Welcome to the family :D
p/s : Lepas ni album fb ada 50.
The survival
Biar panas mana, biar sesak mana, biar awal pagi, biar penat mana, mereka sanggup tahan. Mereka sanggup tunggu. Terima kasih mereka yang tersayang.
Last thursday was my big day. The very big big one. After four years of struggling, i am so proud to say that now i am an accounting graduates. I am so proud being me. Wayyyy too proud. I learned a lot. From numbers, life, family and also love. Uitm Kedah is the best.
Doing accounts is not as easy as you think. I struggled a lot. I gave up. I mess up. But after all, i survived. And i know, though i have to face all the hardship, i always knew ayah and mama will always support. And all of this is for them.
Ayah is someone who don't like being in crowd. And tak suka berpanas lama lama. He is someone who if you have settled things, then lets go home. He is like that. But on my big day, he sacrificed. But ayah don't get in the hall. I know he tak larat to wake up as early as 6 just to queue panjang panjang and then my turn is soooo lambat. So yeah. I let him slept first at the hotel. So he sent us, me and mama (see how mama's heart, she woke up at 6, she queue, she's the first one to get in). And yessssssssss. I finally got my scroll.
Last thursday was my big day. The very big big one. After four years of struggling, i am so proud to say that now i am an accounting graduates. I am so proud being me. Wayyyy too proud. I learned a lot. From numbers, life, family and also love. Uitm Kedah is the best.
Doing accounts is not as easy as you think. I struggled a lot. I gave up. I mess up. But after all, i survived. And i know, though i have to face all the hardship, i always knew ayah and mama will always support. And all of this is for them.
Ayah is someone who don't like being in crowd. And tak suka berpanas lama lama. He is someone who if you have settled things, then lets go home. He is like that. But on my big day, he sacrificed. But ayah don't get in the hall. I know he tak larat to wake up as early as 6 just to queue panjang panjang and then my turn is soooo lambat. So yeah. I let him slept first at the hotel. So he sent us, me and mama (see how mama's heart, she woke up at 6, she queue, she's the first one to get in). And yessssssssss. I finally got my scroll.
thank you for coming pretty :D
big thanks
the proud parents
p/s : Al, imissyou. We survived. I'm proud of you. :)
Friday, November 26, 2010
You wish to run, but don't know where
At some point you feel like running, but you just don't know where.
So end up the best place to run is into his warmest hug.
Where there's only the both of us.
And then you'll know everything just gonna be fine.
So end up the best place to run is into his warmest hug.
Where there's only the both of us.
And then you'll know everything just gonna be fine.
because we are missing each other
She says fine when she's actually not fine
Fuck the ego.
Fuck the jealousy.
Fuck the stupid mouth.
Fuck the not being understanding.
Fuck the past.
Fuck the fine.
Fuck the jealousy.
Fuck the stupid mouth.
Fuck the not being understanding.
Fuck the past.
Fuck the fine.
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Sweet or Loud
Being an easy going, talkative, friendly and loud doesn't really make my life happy all the time. I wish i was a pretty and sweet. But I will never be. ;(
I do what boys do. I burb like a boy. I'm a loud laugther. I kick boys.
Know why, because i have 2 brothers in the house. The big and the small. I do housework. No, not the cooking part, but the cuci-ing part, the angkat angkat part, the repair repair part. See, don't blame me. Blame the house school when i was little. And blame my childhood friend. Not memed, but long long childhood friends. I can't remember their name anymore. Since my gab with my older brother is just 2 years, so we played together. With his friends. I play rounders. I play hide and seek. Baling selipar. Kereta tamiya.
Sorry, i don't do masak masak, kawin kawin, make up make up. No. I don't do that when i was little.
So blame the surroundings during my childhood.
Among all the boys thing i can do, alhamdulillah, i don't date girls. Fuck to that.
Grow older, i seems to have more guy friends instead of girls. When you loud, people won't treat you nice. I meant, bukan macam kurang ajar punya treating. But ye lah, bahan bahan thing, talk whatever in mind. Kire macam selamba punya friendship. I felt that during my diploma. Of all the guy friends, the classmate or whatever mate, they don't treat me like they treat sweet type of girl. Kira macam tak payah jaga hati. Maybe they're too comfortable sampai ignore the sensitivity. I don't blame them, i blame myself for not being a sweet type of girl.
At some point, i realize. If i still behave and continue making friends with guys instead of girls, that will make me look bad. Like seriously, orang tengok, eh banyaknye kawan lelaki die. People thoughts you can never control. Maybe i am being myself but yet people thoughts should be consider. They don't understand. And some guys who make friends with pon, ada jugak cakap belakang. Then i know, i need a change. So i cut the list and the list getting shorter when i met Mr.B.
I learned a lot from my past. So lots. And I changed. I'm not like what i used to be. I know i changed a lot. But i can never be perfect. No one could ever be. If last time i talk to random friends, now i don't. If last time i approved random people, now i don't. If last time i answered unknown number, now i don't. If last time i talk too much with guys, now i don't. I don't do club. I don't go out with my guy friends. All pon don't. So i assumed, i am much better than what i used to be. Now i jaga the tatasusila. The what people might think. Jaga the air muka of mr.B. I'm happy with the changes i made.
For all the strangers thing and people, i can't denied i still talk with guys. I mean, how can you not talking to people you already known for long time. That is not the right thing to do. In future, if you choose to live only inside your box, then it will be hard. Apatah lagi when i'm doing mass comm. My 1st semester pon dah susah. I have the photo class. I'm dumbed in using gadget and i don't have the gadget. When you have friends in that field, then your life is muchhhhh easy compared to mine. At least that was what i saw my classmate did. Why burden yourself when you can actually ask for help. This is the reality in life. And when you in working field. You need more contacts. Kalau tak nak bersosial dengan orang, then susah. Then go back to accounting field. :D. Tapi sama je, kalau nak keje bank, if ada contacts then lagi ok. Zaman sekarang susah.
The key point, you should know which type of people you should be friend with. The limit in the friendship. Kalau dah ada boyfriend, but wanted to be friends with other guys in a way of gatal gatal way, then tak payah kawan. Dok umah masak je. So, the way you approach people, the way you built the relationship, the way you handle it is very important. Don't built the friendship by having fun in clubs, invited to private party or all sort of thing. Choose the right one. When talking about having fun, you have your mr.B to have fun with.
Limit is important. And trust should be given. Understanding is the worst part.
Semua orang suka bersembang. Just don't judge, be understanding.
As long as you know your limit. Everything should be okay.
Of all, i still wish i was born pretty and sweet who talk softly and wore sweet dress.
p/s : Be proud to know that i don't do club, i don't hangout with guys.
I do what boys do. I burb like a boy. I'm a loud laugther. I kick boys.
Know why, because i have 2 brothers in the house. The big and the small. I do housework. No, not the cooking part, but the cuci-ing part, the angkat angkat part, the repair repair part. See, don't blame me. Blame the house school when i was little. And blame my childhood friend. Not memed, but long long childhood friends. I can't remember their name anymore. Since my gab with my older brother is just 2 years, so we played together. With his friends. I play rounders. I play hide and seek. Baling selipar. Kereta tamiya.
Sorry, i don't do masak masak, kawin kawin, make up make up. No. I don't do that when i was little.
So blame the surroundings during my childhood.
Among all the boys thing i can do, alhamdulillah, i don't date girls. Fuck to that.
Grow older, i seems to have more guy friends instead of girls. When you loud, people won't treat you nice. I meant, bukan macam kurang ajar punya treating. But ye lah, bahan bahan thing, talk whatever in mind. Kire macam selamba punya friendship. I felt that during my diploma. Of all the guy friends, the classmate or whatever mate, they don't treat me like they treat sweet type of girl. Kira macam tak payah jaga hati. Maybe they're too comfortable sampai ignore the sensitivity. I don't blame them, i blame myself for not being a sweet type of girl.
At some point, i realize. If i still behave and continue making friends with guys instead of girls, that will make me look bad. Like seriously, orang tengok, eh banyaknye kawan lelaki die. People thoughts you can never control. Maybe i am being myself but yet people thoughts should be consider. They don't understand. And some guys who make friends with pon, ada jugak cakap belakang. Then i know, i need a change. So i cut the list and the list getting shorter when i met Mr.B.
I learned a lot from my past. So lots. And I changed. I'm not like what i used to be. I know i changed a lot. But i can never be perfect. No one could ever be. If last time i talk to random friends, now i don't. If last time i approved random people, now i don't. If last time i answered unknown number, now i don't. If last time i talk too much with guys, now i don't. I don't do club. I don't go out with my guy friends. All pon don't. So i assumed, i am much better than what i used to be. Now i jaga the tatasusila. The what people might think. Jaga the air muka of mr.B. I'm happy with the changes i made.
For all the strangers thing and people, i can't denied i still talk with guys. I mean, how can you not talking to people you already known for long time. That is not the right thing to do. In future, if you choose to live only inside your box, then it will be hard. Apatah lagi when i'm doing mass comm. My 1st semester pon dah susah. I have the photo class. I'm dumbed in using gadget and i don't have the gadget. When you have friends in that field, then your life is muchhhhh easy compared to mine. At least that was what i saw my classmate did. Why burden yourself when you can actually ask for help. This is the reality in life. And when you in working field. You need more contacts. Kalau tak nak bersosial dengan orang, then susah. Then go back to accounting field. :D. Tapi sama je, kalau nak keje bank, if ada contacts then lagi ok. Zaman sekarang susah.
The key point, you should know which type of people you should be friend with. The limit in the friendship. Kalau dah ada boyfriend, but wanted to be friends with other guys in a way of gatal gatal way, then tak payah kawan. Dok umah masak je. So, the way you approach people, the way you built the relationship, the way you handle it is very important. Don't built the friendship by having fun in clubs, invited to private party or all sort of thing. Choose the right one. When talking about having fun, you have your mr.B to have fun with.
Limit is important. And trust should be given. Understanding is the worst part.
Semua orang suka bersembang. Just don't judge, be understanding.
As long as you know your limit. Everything should be okay.
Of all, i still wish i was born pretty and sweet who talk softly and wore sweet dress.
spoiled*
p/s : Be proud to know that i don't do club, i don't hangout with guys.
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Hello to sorry
True friends stays over 1000 arguments but friends bail out on you over single argument. And sorry is a powerful word.
Ingat entry kerana mulut badan binasa. Boleh jadi juga kerana writing badan binasa. Boleh buat peribahasa.
Ok, the previous entry was written when i was mad. Like real mad. So the wording is harsh. I know i shouldn't wrote that way. Tapi yelah, bile marah semua keluar. That's how you express your feeling. You might feel relief, but people might get hurt. And i regret.
Though that, if i don't tell you wouldn't know. Maybe the writing rude. Somehow, at least you know i was hurt. We were friends back then. Seriously i am mad for what happened but your sorry really save the relationship. That's the power of sorry.
And therefor, I would say sorry for the rude writing i posted. Although i wrote it here, but its between us. You know me, I know you.
I forgive you, we can still be friends. Use nice word when speak or write. :)
Ingat entry kerana mulut badan binasa. Boleh jadi juga kerana writing badan binasa. Boleh buat peribahasa.
Ok, the previous entry was written when i was mad. Like real mad. So the wording is harsh. I know i shouldn't wrote that way. Tapi yelah, bile marah semua keluar. That's how you express your feeling. You might feel relief, but people might get hurt. And i regret.
Though that, if i don't tell you wouldn't know. Maybe the writing rude. Somehow, at least you know i was hurt. We were friends back then. Seriously i am mad for what happened but your sorry really save the relationship. That's the power of sorry.
And therefor, I would say sorry for the rude writing i posted. Although i wrote it here, but its between us. You know me, I know you.
I forgive you, we can still be friends. Use nice word when speak or write. :)
Tall / Short
You wanna be on top ?
Ever heard this line ? I bet all of you must have watched this reality show. Who on earth doesn't know America's Next Top Model. Baik tinggal dengan katak bawah tempurung. I'm not a big fan of it but if ada, then i'll watch. I just love to see the drama between those girls. Yelling to each other. The more the girls, the loud the yelled. That's why i only have one friend that i really really close and really really trust. Who else lah kan. S, not for serena, but Estee. Don't dream to be Serena. hahaha. :D
Ok cut the crap. No, i'm not gonna talk bout ANTM. What caught my attention here is the letter M. Have you ever dream to be a model. Na'ah. Not for me. Because i know i'm short to be a model. Like seriousssslyyyyy short. But i tried once. Ahhhhhaaaaa. So malu !
Well well. I have a friend. Elya. We were a childhood friend. So baby, i'm gonna remain calling your nickname, Memed. not Me Med but pronounced as mermaid okay ! The nickname itself represent hers. She's tall and have a beatiful body. So she do modelling and acting. She's one of the actress in Ratu The Movie. Berada di pawagam soon, so watch ok people. Again, cut the crap. I wanna share about the modeling thingy. Tapi still movie jangan lupa tengok ok. :)
Semua start when one day i went out for dinner with her and suddenly she's late for runway rehearsal. Untuk karnival pengantin at SACC. Jadi nak jadikan cerita, dia bawaklah sekali ke sana. Malas nak ulang alik katanya. Yeah yeah. I met some other models. They're pretty and tall for sure. Dengan berbaju kurung baru habis exam paper, i just sat beside and take care of their bags. Huh. what a day. Lama okay tunggu diorang practice.
Eh tiba tiba owner butik pengantin tu baru perasan, ada pengantin tapi tak ada pengapit. Memandangkan i'm there yang macam pathetic gile kesian tunggu muka sememeh, so she pick me. So basically takde la model sangat, jadi pengapit pon still atas runway weyhhh. Its something to be remembered la. Seriously. Bile pengapit, yang paling lama lah jawabnya tercangak dengan atas stage. Masa karnival, mannnn, malu banyakkk time tu. Ramai gila orang. Jalan sempit nak jadi pengapit pon susah sebab models tinggi payung sangkut sangkut kepala pengantin. Haha. I don't do the catwalk, but masa last tu kena jalan sama sama sebab i'm wearing one of the baju jugak. Eh, my baju is more cantik than the pengantin. At least that's what i heard. :DDDDD.
p/s : I got called for a photo shoot after that modeling thing. See, pendek pon boleh lah. haha. But i don't accept. I just don't into it or maybe not yet. :)
Ever heard this line ? I bet all of you must have watched this reality show. Who on earth doesn't know America's Next Top Model. Baik tinggal dengan katak bawah tempurung. I'm not a big fan of it but if ada, then i'll watch. I just love to see the drama between those girls. Yelling to each other. The more the girls, the loud the yelled. That's why i only have one friend that i really really close and really really trust. Who else lah kan. S, not for serena, but Estee. Don't dream to be Serena. hahaha. :D
Ok cut the crap. No, i'm not gonna talk bout ANTM. What caught my attention here is the letter M. Have you ever dream to be a model. Na'ah. Not for me. Because i know i'm short to be a model. Like seriousssslyyyyy short. But i tried once. Ahhhhhaaaaa. So malu !
Well well. I have a friend. Elya. We were a childhood friend. So baby, i'm gonna remain calling your nickname, Memed. not Me Med but pronounced as mermaid okay ! The nickname itself represent hers. She's tall and have a beatiful body. So she do modelling and acting. She's one of the actress in Ratu The Movie. Berada di pawagam soon, so watch ok people. Again, cut the crap. I wanna share about the modeling thingy. Tapi still movie jangan lupa tengok ok. :)
Semua start when one day i went out for dinner with her and suddenly she's late for runway rehearsal. Untuk karnival pengantin at SACC. Jadi nak jadikan cerita, dia bawaklah sekali ke sana. Malas nak ulang alik katanya. Yeah yeah. I met some other models. They're pretty and tall for sure. Dengan berbaju kurung baru habis exam paper, i just sat beside and take care of their bags. Huh. what a day. Lama okay tunggu diorang practice.
Eh tiba tiba owner butik pengantin tu baru perasan, ada pengantin tapi tak ada pengapit. Memandangkan i'm there yang macam pathetic gile kesian tunggu muka sememeh, so she pick me. So basically takde la model sangat, jadi pengapit pon still atas runway weyhhh. Its something to be remembered la. Seriously. Bile pengapit, yang paling lama lah jawabnya tercangak dengan atas stage. Masa karnival, mannnn, malu banyakkk time tu. Ramai gila orang. Jalan sempit nak jadi pengapit pon susah sebab models tinggi payung sangkut sangkut kepala pengantin. Haha. I don't do the catwalk, but masa last tu kena jalan sama sama sebab i'm wearing one of the baju jugak. Eh, my baju is more cantik than the pengantin. At least that's what i heard. :DDDDD.
ignore the low quality, the dress very nice
paling pendek, masehhh
pak pacak kat tepi je
Nampak why i have never dream to do modelling. Tak kesah tinggi mana kasut pon, i'm still gonna be the shortest. Malu lah. :) But at least i got the chance to wear that nice long dress but i won't pick that to be wedding dress. Definitely not. Siapa nak pakai hitam on wedding day. Bring bad luck. Haha. Tapi baju lain cantik cantik belaka. Yang from other butik pon cantik.
after all, being with this sickpsychotalkative girl is the best thing to end the day
*** forgot to tell, ini busana muslimah.
Monday, November 22, 2010
Money can't buy me. Can they buy you ?
Manusia lalai dan alpa kerana duit. Bongkak dan takbur kerana duit. Bercerai berai kerana duit.
Seronok kalau lahir dan hidup dalam keluarga yang senang lenang. Yang kaya raya mampu beli macam macam. Cakap nak apa. Kereta mewah, iphone, blackberry, segala jenis designers handbags, kasut, just name it, you'll get it. Heaven in the world. Indahnya hidup. Itu kalau dilahirkan dalam keluarga kaya raya. Tapi kalau dilahirkan keluarga bersederhana, ada kekasih anak dato' pon jugak. Hehe but not for me.
I always have the thought where, rich people will give you trouble in future. Tak payah future sangat, within the relationship pon bole ada trouble. Boleh tahan layan kerenah orang macam ni? Kalau boleh, then go ahead. Not for me.
Iye, orang yang kaya mampu menjamin masa depan. Tak ada siapa membantah. Masa depan macam mana yang dimaksudkan ? Berumah besar , bergoyang kaki di rumah, berkereta mewah dua pintu tanpa bumbung, berbodyguard ke sana ke mari. Siapa tak mahu . Semua mahu, tapi not for me.
Despite the pleasant life and luxury, akan ada rasa susah. Mampu hati nak tahan ? Mungkin tidak adil bagi orang kaya di luar sana, but this is reality. Its happens everywhere. Dalam drama dan real life. Berapa banyak orang kaya, anak orang kaya yang banyak girlfriend. Yang dah kahwin ada girlfriend pon ada. Itu tak apa, kahwin 4 pon ramai. Dah kaya, ramai perempuan nak, kalau boleh simpan dua, kenapa nak buang satu. Hah, diolog pisau cukur. Ini sebab utama why money can't buy me. No man, never.
Okaylah, mungkin ada yang tak begitu. Mungkin ada yang setia. Tak baik tuduh semua. Tapi ada jugak kerenah lain yang kena tahan. Telinga mampu tahan ? Bile merengek suruh dibelikan handbags, kasut, handphone dan segala macam benda, jadi orang kaya pon beli. Kalau dah orang orang melabur banyak, mula timbul rasa bongkak dan takbur. Bole tahan telinga dengar die ungkit segala macam benda yang dah dia belikan ? Segala jumlah duit yang dah die spent for you ? Asal gaduh, mula sebut pasal duit. Boleh tahan? Kalau boleh bagus la, but not for me.
I have never dream a rich guy. I never wanted to date a rich man. But i loveeee to see my friends date these guys. At least i know they have bright future. I can't deny that. Rambut sama hitam, hati lain lain. And its all depends on how you treat the relationship. Cuma mungkin i have never felt to fall for these kinda guy and never wanted to give a try. So i will always have these negative thoughts towards them.
Because i already have a guy who know how to treat me well. Who know how to always make me smile. Who can make the stupidest things and face just to make me laugh. I am so grateful to be with him. I don't need his money, what i have now is more than enough.
Berapa banyak orang susah yang bahagia sampai anak cucu. Yang berjanji sehidup semati. Yang setia tanpa menoleh. Kerana mereka tidak ada rasa bongkak dan bangga. Jadi mereka tak ada masa nak pandang perempuan lain, tak ada masa nak mengorat orang lain.
You minght not drive cool cars, lunch and dinner at hotels, chanel handbag as birthday gift, but you have all his love, all his time. Duit boleh dicari.
Lain orang, lain citarasa. Citarasa saya, kelakar. Awak macam mana ?
Seronok kalau lahir dan hidup dalam keluarga yang senang lenang. Yang kaya raya mampu beli macam macam. Cakap nak apa. Kereta mewah, iphone, blackberry, segala jenis designers handbags, kasut, just name it, you'll get it. Heaven in the world. Indahnya hidup. Itu kalau dilahirkan dalam keluarga kaya raya. Tapi kalau dilahirkan keluarga bersederhana, ada kekasih anak dato' pon jugak. Hehe but not for me.
I always have the thought where, rich people will give you trouble in future. Tak payah future sangat, within the relationship pon bole ada trouble. Boleh tahan layan kerenah orang macam ni? Kalau boleh, then go ahead. Not for me.
Iye, orang yang kaya mampu menjamin masa depan. Tak ada siapa membantah. Masa depan macam mana yang dimaksudkan ? Berumah besar , bergoyang kaki di rumah, berkereta mewah dua pintu tanpa bumbung, berbodyguard ke sana ke mari. Siapa tak mahu . Semua mahu, tapi not for me.
Despite the pleasant life and luxury, akan ada rasa susah. Mampu hati nak tahan ? Mungkin tidak adil bagi orang kaya di luar sana, but this is reality. Its happens everywhere. Dalam drama dan real life. Berapa banyak orang kaya, anak orang kaya yang banyak girlfriend. Yang dah kahwin ada girlfriend pon ada. Itu tak apa, kahwin 4 pon ramai. Dah kaya, ramai perempuan nak, kalau boleh simpan dua, kenapa nak buang satu. Hah, diolog pisau cukur. Ini sebab utama why money can't buy me. No man, never.
Okaylah, mungkin ada yang tak begitu. Mungkin ada yang setia. Tak baik tuduh semua. Tapi ada jugak kerenah lain yang kena tahan. Telinga mampu tahan ? Bile merengek suruh dibelikan handbags, kasut, handphone dan segala macam benda, jadi orang kaya pon beli. Kalau dah orang orang melabur banyak, mula timbul rasa bongkak dan takbur. Bole tahan telinga dengar die ungkit segala macam benda yang dah dia belikan ? Segala jumlah duit yang dah die spent for you ? Asal gaduh, mula sebut pasal duit. Boleh tahan? Kalau boleh bagus la, but not for me.
I have never dream a rich guy. I never wanted to date a rich man. But i loveeee to see my friends date these guys. At least i know they have bright future. I can't deny that. Rambut sama hitam, hati lain lain. And its all depends on how you treat the relationship. Cuma mungkin i have never felt to fall for these kinda guy and never wanted to give a try. So i will always have these negative thoughts towards them.
Because i already have a guy who know how to treat me well. Who know how to always make me smile. Who can make the stupidest things and face just to make me laugh. I am so grateful to be with him. I don't need his money, what i have now is more than enough.
Berapa banyak orang susah yang bahagia sampai anak cucu. Yang berjanji sehidup semati. Yang setia tanpa menoleh. Kerana mereka tidak ada rasa bongkak dan bangga. Jadi mereka tak ada masa nak pandang perempuan lain, tak ada masa nak mengorat orang lain.
You minght not drive cool cars, lunch and dinner at hotels, chanel handbag as birthday gift, but you have all his love, all his time. Duit boleh dicari.
Lain orang, lain citarasa. Citarasa saya, kelakar. Awak macam mana ?
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