Fuck the ego.
Fuck the jealousy.
Fuck the stupid mouth.
Fuck the not being understanding.
Fuck the past.
Fuck the fine.
Showing posts with label freedom. Show all posts
Showing posts with label freedom. Show all posts
Friday, November 26, 2010
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Sweet or Loud
Being an easy going, talkative, friendly and loud doesn't really make my life happy all the time. I wish i was a pretty and sweet. But I will never be. ;(
I do what boys do. I burb like a boy. I'm a loud laugther. I kick boys.
Know why, because i have 2 brothers in the house. The big and the small. I do housework. No, not the cooking part, but the cuci-ing part, the angkat angkat part, the repair repair part. See, don't blame me. Blame the house school when i was little. And blame my childhood friend. Not memed, but long long childhood friends. I can't remember their name anymore. Since my gab with my older brother is just 2 years, so we played together. With his friends. I play rounders. I play hide and seek. Baling selipar. Kereta tamiya.
Sorry, i don't do masak masak, kawin kawin, make up make up. No. I don't do that when i was little.
So blame the surroundings during my childhood.
Among all the boys thing i can do, alhamdulillah, i don't date girls. Fuck to that.
Grow older, i seems to have more guy friends instead of girls. When you loud, people won't treat you nice. I meant, bukan macam kurang ajar punya treating. But ye lah, bahan bahan thing, talk whatever in mind. Kire macam selamba punya friendship. I felt that during my diploma. Of all the guy friends, the classmate or whatever mate, they don't treat me like they treat sweet type of girl. Kira macam tak payah jaga hati. Maybe they're too comfortable sampai ignore the sensitivity. I don't blame them, i blame myself for not being a sweet type of girl.
At some point, i realize. If i still behave and continue making friends with guys instead of girls, that will make me look bad. Like seriously, orang tengok, eh banyaknye kawan lelaki die. People thoughts you can never control. Maybe i am being myself but yet people thoughts should be consider. They don't understand. And some guys who make friends with pon, ada jugak cakap belakang. Then i know, i need a change. So i cut the list and the list getting shorter when i met Mr.B.
I learned a lot from my past. So lots. And I changed. I'm not like what i used to be. I know i changed a lot. But i can never be perfect. No one could ever be. If last time i talk to random friends, now i don't. If last time i approved random people, now i don't. If last time i answered unknown number, now i don't. If last time i talk too much with guys, now i don't. I don't do club. I don't go out with my guy friends. All pon don't. So i assumed, i am much better than what i used to be. Now i jaga the tatasusila. The what people might think. Jaga the air muka of mr.B. I'm happy with the changes i made.
For all the strangers thing and people, i can't denied i still talk with guys. I mean, how can you not talking to people you already known for long time. That is not the right thing to do. In future, if you choose to live only inside your box, then it will be hard. Apatah lagi when i'm doing mass comm. My 1st semester pon dah susah. I have the photo class. I'm dumbed in using gadget and i don't have the gadget. When you have friends in that field, then your life is muchhhhh easy compared to mine. At least that was what i saw my classmate did. Why burden yourself when you can actually ask for help. This is the reality in life. And when you in working field. You need more contacts. Kalau tak nak bersosial dengan orang, then susah. Then go back to accounting field. :D. Tapi sama je, kalau nak keje bank, if ada contacts then lagi ok. Zaman sekarang susah.
The key point, you should know which type of people you should be friend with. The limit in the friendship. Kalau dah ada boyfriend, but wanted to be friends with other guys in a way of gatal gatal way, then tak payah kawan. Dok umah masak je. So, the way you approach people, the way you built the relationship, the way you handle it is very important. Don't built the friendship by having fun in clubs, invited to private party or all sort of thing. Choose the right one. When talking about having fun, you have your mr.B to have fun with.
Limit is important. And trust should be given. Understanding is the worst part.
Semua orang suka bersembang. Just don't judge, be understanding.
As long as you know your limit. Everything should be okay.
Of all, i still wish i was born pretty and sweet who talk softly and wore sweet dress.
p/s : Be proud to know that i don't do club, i don't hangout with guys.
I do what boys do. I burb like a boy. I'm a loud laugther. I kick boys.
Know why, because i have 2 brothers in the house. The big and the small. I do housework. No, not the cooking part, but the cuci-ing part, the angkat angkat part, the repair repair part. See, don't blame me. Blame the house school when i was little. And blame my childhood friend. Not memed, but long long childhood friends. I can't remember their name anymore. Since my gab with my older brother is just 2 years, so we played together. With his friends. I play rounders. I play hide and seek. Baling selipar. Kereta tamiya.
Sorry, i don't do masak masak, kawin kawin, make up make up. No. I don't do that when i was little.
So blame the surroundings during my childhood.
Among all the boys thing i can do, alhamdulillah, i don't date girls. Fuck to that.
Grow older, i seems to have more guy friends instead of girls. When you loud, people won't treat you nice. I meant, bukan macam kurang ajar punya treating. But ye lah, bahan bahan thing, talk whatever in mind. Kire macam selamba punya friendship. I felt that during my diploma. Of all the guy friends, the classmate or whatever mate, they don't treat me like they treat sweet type of girl. Kira macam tak payah jaga hati. Maybe they're too comfortable sampai ignore the sensitivity. I don't blame them, i blame myself for not being a sweet type of girl.
At some point, i realize. If i still behave and continue making friends with guys instead of girls, that will make me look bad. Like seriously, orang tengok, eh banyaknye kawan lelaki die. People thoughts you can never control. Maybe i am being myself but yet people thoughts should be consider. They don't understand. And some guys who make friends with pon, ada jugak cakap belakang. Then i know, i need a change. So i cut the list and the list getting shorter when i met Mr.B.
I learned a lot from my past. So lots. And I changed. I'm not like what i used to be. I know i changed a lot. But i can never be perfect. No one could ever be. If last time i talk to random friends, now i don't. If last time i approved random people, now i don't. If last time i answered unknown number, now i don't. If last time i talk too much with guys, now i don't. I don't do club. I don't go out with my guy friends. All pon don't. So i assumed, i am much better than what i used to be. Now i jaga the tatasusila. The what people might think. Jaga the air muka of mr.B. I'm happy with the changes i made.
For all the strangers thing and people, i can't denied i still talk with guys. I mean, how can you not talking to people you already known for long time. That is not the right thing to do. In future, if you choose to live only inside your box, then it will be hard. Apatah lagi when i'm doing mass comm. My 1st semester pon dah susah. I have the photo class. I'm dumbed in using gadget and i don't have the gadget. When you have friends in that field, then your life is muchhhhh easy compared to mine. At least that was what i saw my classmate did. Why burden yourself when you can actually ask for help. This is the reality in life. And when you in working field. You need more contacts. Kalau tak nak bersosial dengan orang, then susah. Then go back to accounting field. :D. Tapi sama je, kalau nak keje bank, if ada contacts then lagi ok. Zaman sekarang susah.
The key point, you should know which type of people you should be friend with. The limit in the friendship. Kalau dah ada boyfriend, but wanted to be friends with other guys in a way of gatal gatal way, then tak payah kawan. Dok umah masak je. So, the way you approach people, the way you built the relationship, the way you handle it is very important. Don't built the friendship by having fun in clubs, invited to private party or all sort of thing. Choose the right one. When talking about having fun, you have your mr.B to have fun with.
Limit is important. And trust should be given. Understanding is the worst part.
Semua orang suka bersembang. Just don't judge, be understanding.
As long as you know your limit. Everything should be okay.
Of all, i still wish i was born pretty and sweet who talk softly and wore sweet dress.
spoiled*
p/s : Be proud to know that i don't do club, i don't hangout with guys.
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Hello to sorry
True friends stays over 1000 arguments but friends bail out on you over single argument. And sorry is a powerful word.
Ingat entry kerana mulut badan binasa. Boleh jadi juga kerana writing badan binasa. Boleh buat peribahasa.
Ok, the previous entry was written when i was mad. Like real mad. So the wording is harsh. I know i shouldn't wrote that way. Tapi yelah, bile marah semua keluar. That's how you express your feeling. You might feel relief, but people might get hurt. And i regret.
Though that, if i don't tell you wouldn't know. Maybe the writing rude. Somehow, at least you know i was hurt. We were friends back then. Seriously i am mad for what happened but your sorry really save the relationship. That's the power of sorry.
And therefor, I would say sorry for the rude writing i posted. Although i wrote it here, but its between us. You know me, I know you.
I forgive you, we can still be friends. Use nice word when speak or write. :)
Ingat entry kerana mulut badan binasa. Boleh jadi juga kerana writing badan binasa. Boleh buat peribahasa.
Ok, the previous entry was written when i was mad. Like real mad. So the wording is harsh. I know i shouldn't wrote that way. Tapi yelah, bile marah semua keluar. That's how you express your feeling. You might feel relief, but people might get hurt. And i regret.
Though that, if i don't tell you wouldn't know. Maybe the writing rude. Somehow, at least you know i was hurt. We were friends back then. Seriously i am mad for what happened but your sorry really save the relationship. That's the power of sorry.
And therefor, I would say sorry for the rude writing i posted. Although i wrote it here, but its between us. You know me, I know you.
I forgive you, we can still be friends. Use nice word when speak or write. :)
Monday, November 22, 2010
Money can't buy me. Can they buy you ?
Manusia lalai dan alpa kerana duit. Bongkak dan takbur kerana duit. Bercerai berai kerana duit.
Seronok kalau lahir dan hidup dalam keluarga yang senang lenang. Yang kaya raya mampu beli macam macam. Cakap nak apa. Kereta mewah, iphone, blackberry, segala jenis designers handbags, kasut, just name it, you'll get it. Heaven in the world. Indahnya hidup. Itu kalau dilahirkan dalam keluarga kaya raya. Tapi kalau dilahirkan keluarga bersederhana, ada kekasih anak dato' pon jugak. Hehe but not for me.
I always have the thought where, rich people will give you trouble in future. Tak payah future sangat, within the relationship pon bole ada trouble. Boleh tahan layan kerenah orang macam ni? Kalau boleh, then go ahead. Not for me.
Iye, orang yang kaya mampu menjamin masa depan. Tak ada siapa membantah. Masa depan macam mana yang dimaksudkan ? Berumah besar , bergoyang kaki di rumah, berkereta mewah dua pintu tanpa bumbung, berbodyguard ke sana ke mari. Siapa tak mahu . Semua mahu, tapi not for me.
Despite the pleasant life and luxury, akan ada rasa susah. Mampu hati nak tahan ? Mungkin tidak adil bagi orang kaya di luar sana, but this is reality. Its happens everywhere. Dalam drama dan real life. Berapa banyak orang kaya, anak orang kaya yang banyak girlfriend. Yang dah kahwin ada girlfriend pon ada. Itu tak apa, kahwin 4 pon ramai. Dah kaya, ramai perempuan nak, kalau boleh simpan dua, kenapa nak buang satu. Hah, diolog pisau cukur. Ini sebab utama why money can't buy me. No man, never.
Okaylah, mungkin ada yang tak begitu. Mungkin ada yang setia. Tak baik tuduh semua. Tapi ada jugak kerenah lain yang kena tahan. Telinga mampu tahan ? Bile merengek suruh dibelikan handbags, kasut, handphone dan segala macam benda, jadi orang kaya pon beli. Kalau dah orang orang melabur banyak, mula timbul rasa bongkak dan takbur. Bole tahan telinga dengar die ungkit segala macam benda yang dah dia belikan ? Segala jumlah duit yang dah die spent for you ? Asal gaduh, mula sebut pasal duit. Boleh tahan? Kalau boleh bagus la, but not for me.
I have never dream a rich guy. I never wanted to date a rich man. But i loveeee to see my friends date these guys. At least i know they have bright future. I can't deny that. Rambut sama hitam, hati lain lain. And its all depends on how you treat the relationship. Cuma mungkin i have never felt to fall for these kinda guy and never wanted to give a try. So i will always have these negative thoughts towards them.
Because i already have a guy who know how to treat me well. Who know how to always make me smile. Who can make the stupidest things and face just to make me laugh. I am so grateful to be with him. I don't need his money, what i have now is more than enough.
Berapa banyak orang susah yang bahagia sampai anak cucu. Yang berjanji sehidup semati. Yang setia tanpa menoleh. Kerana mereka tidak ada rasa bongkak dan bangga. Jadi mereka tak ada masa nak pandang perempuan lain, tak ada masa nak mengorat orang lain.
You minght not drive cool cars, lunch and dinner at hotels, chanel handbag as birthday gift, but you have all his love, all his time. Duit boleh dicari.
Lain orang, lain citarasa. Citarasa saya, kelakar. Awak macam mana ?
Seronok kalau lahir dan hidup dalam keluarga yang senang lenang. Yang kaya raya mampu beli macam macam. Cakap nak apa. Kereta mewah, iphone, blackberry, segala jenis designers handbags, kasut, just name it, you'll get it. Heaven in the world. Indahnya hidup. Itu kalau dilahirkan dalam keluarga kaya raya. Tapi kalau dilahirkan keluarga bersederhana, ada kekasih anak dato' pon jugak. Hehe but not for me.
I always have the thought where, rich people will give you trouble in future. Tak payah future sangat, within the relationship pon bole ada trouble. Boleh tahan layan kerenah orang macam ni? Kalau boleh, then go ahead. Not for me.
Iye, orang yang kaya mampu menjamin masa depan. Tak ada siapa membantah. Masa depan macam mana yang dimaksudkan ? Berumah besar , bergoyang kaki di rumah, berkereta mewah dua pintu tanpa bumbung, berbodyguard ke sana ke mari. Siapa tak mahu . Semua mahu, tapi not for me.
Despite the pleasant life and luxury, akan ada rasa susah. Mampu hati nak tahan ? Mungkin tidak adil bagi orang kaya di luar sana, but this is reality. Its happens everywhere. Dalam drama dan real life. Berapa banyak orang kaya, anak orang kaya yang banyak girlfriend. Yang dah kahwin ada girlfriend pon ada. Itu tak apa, kahwin 4 pon ramai. Dah kaya, ramai perempuan nak, kalau boleh simpan dua, kenapa nak buang satu. Hah, diolog pisau cukur. Ini sebab utama why money can't buy me. No man, never.
Okaylah, mungkin ada yang tak begitu. Mungkin ada yang setia. Tak baik tuduh semua. Tapi ada jugak kerenah lain yang kena tahan. Telinga mampu tahan ? Bile merengek suruh dibelikan handbags, kasut, handphone dan segala macam benda, jadi orang kaya pon beli. Kalau dah orang orang melabur banyak, mula timbul rasa bongkak dan takbur. Bole tahan telinga dengar die ungkit segala macam benda yang dah dia belikan ? Segala jumlah duit yang dah die spent for you ? Asal gaduh, mula sebut pasal duit. Boleh tahan? Kalau boleh bagus la, but not for me.
I have never dream a rich guy. I never wanted to date a rich man. But i loveeee to see my friends date these guys. At least i know they have bright future. I can't deny that. Rambut sama hitam, hati lain lain. And its all depends on how you treat the relationship. Cuma mungkin i have never felt to fall for these kinda guy and never wanted to give a try. So i will always have these negative thoughts towards them.
Because i already have a guy who know how to treat me well. Who know how to always make me smile. Who can make the stupidest things and face just to make me laugh. I am so grateful to be with him. I don't need his money, what i have now is more than enough.
Berapa banyak orang susah yang bahagia sampai anak cucu. Yang berjanji sehidup semati. Yang setia tanpa menoleh. Kerana mereka tidak ada rasa bongkak dan bangga. Jadi mereka tak ada masa nak pandang perempuan lain, tak ada masa nak mengorat orang lain.
You minght not drive cool cars, lunch and dinner at hotels, chanel handbag as birthday gift, but you have all his love, all his time. Duit boleh dicari.
Lain orang, lain citarasa. Citarasa saya, kelakar. Awak macam mana ?
Monday, November 15, 2010
Budi, Batak , Berbahasa
Orang berbudi, kite berbahasa.
Manusia mudah lupa atau mungkin terlalu selesa hingga lupa kesusahan lampau. Mengapa terciptanya manusia begini ?
Manusia sering alpa dan terlalu asyik berkata kata sehingga menolak tepi tatatusila dan tidak memikirkan terus perasaan orang. Wujudnya manusia begini, makan terciptalah, kerana mulut badan binasa.
Sebagai manusia, seharusnya perlu dibenih perasaan merendah diri sesama manusia. Apatah lagi apabila bersama orang yang telah berbudi kepada kita. Jangan terlalu angkuh dan selesa dengan apa yang dilalui sekarang. Jangan mudah lupa kesusahan lampau. Diri itu telah menjadi serendah rendah manusia memohon simpati dan pertolongan. Dan ketika itu tanpa sebarang alasan, maka mereka menolong tanpa mengharap balasan.
JADI, TIADA ALASAN UNTUK KAMU, LUPA DAN BERLAKU KURANG AJAR SERTA BONGKAK.
Ayah selalu pesan, jika tidak tahu macam mana nak bercakap, jadi diam saje.
So yeah, that's what i do. If i don't approach you, no matter by phone or facebook, that's mean i don't feel like talking to you, why bother talking to me in a very rude way ? Beringat sikit bile nak cakap. Tak tahu lah from where you got all the guts, feeling so confident with yourself when you know what yourself had been through before. Show some respect to people.
You are not that great to come out with that rude word. I advice you, please sit somewhere, reminisce your past. Tak rugi. So that you know how to behave and talk to people.
Yeah, just don't talk to me anymore. You're not someone i would want to have a conversation with. Cermin cermin diri.
Badly hurt. Once hurt, forever remain
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